As the Deer

As the deer panteth for the water, so my soul longeth after Thee.

You alone are my heart’s desire and I long to worship Thee.

You alone are my Strength, my Shield

To You alone may my spirit yield

~ Lyrics from As the Deer

The cry of a hungry and thirsty heart. Hungering after and thirsting after Him alone. David did not set out to be king. David did not set out to slay a giant and win the heart of a nation. David set out after God.

David didn’t long for postion, power and wealth. He longed for God’s Presence.

One thing have I asked of the Lord, that will I seek, inquire for, and [insistently] require: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord [in His presence] all the days of my life, to behold and gaze upon the beauty [the sweet attractiveness and the delightful loveliness] of the Lord and to meditate, consider, and inquire in His temple. (Psalm 27:4, Amplified)

For in the day of trouble He will hide me in His shelter; in the secret place of His tent will He hide me, He will set me high upon a rock. (Psalm 27:5, Amplified)

…through the length of my days the house of the Lord [and His presence] shall be my dwelling place. (Psalm 23:6, Amplified)

Dwelling place, the place I live.

Joshua didn’t set out to lead a nation into their promised land. He set his sights and his attention on God and His Presence and from that place, just like David, God raised a leader for His people.

And the Lord spoke to Moses face to face, as a man speaks to his friend, Moses returned to the camp, but his minister Joshua son of Nun, a young man, did not depart from the [temporary prayer] tent. (Exodus 33:11, Amplified)

I have never set out to do the things I am doing now. I set out after Him and I found myself in extraordinary places doing extraordinary things. Because I hunger and thirst after an extraordinary being, my God, my heavenly Father, my Creator, my Savior, my King, Who is Love.

[For my determined purpose is] that I may know Him [that I may progressively become more deeply and initimately acquainted with Him… (Philippians 3:10, Amplified)

I Am His

I am His.

I said these words to a friend a few days ago and since then they have come to mind many times throughout the day. And each time I hear them I sense a great peace come over me.

The LORD is on my side; I will not fear… (Psalm 118:6, KJV)

Who am I? I am His. I’ve been bought with a price. He wanted me to be His so much that He was willing to redeem me with the price of His Son’s life and His only Son’s blood.

The Creator of the Universe is on my side. I am His and He is mine. What could I possibly fear?

I think of Joshua, Caleb and the ten other spies that Moses sent into Canaan to spy out their promised land. Joshua and Caleb’s report, “…we are well able to conquer it” (Numbers 13:30, Amplified).

The other ten spies’ report, “…we were in our own sight as grasshoppers, and so we were in their sight” (Numbers 13:33, KJV).

Joshua and Caleb focused on who they were in relation to God. We are His chosen nation, His chosen people. We are His covenant people. He has given us this land and we are well able, with His help to take it.

The ten spies focused on themselves in comparison to the inhabitants of the land. They saw themselves as small and defenseless compared to the ‘giants’ that inhabited the land.

That didn’t stop David. His words when he heard the challenges of a giant, “…who is this uncircumcised Philistine, that he should defy the armies of the living God?” (1 Samuel 17:26).

Saul’s response to David, “Thou art not able to go against this Philistine to fight with him: for thou art but a youth, and he a man of war from his youth” (1 Samuel 17:33, KJV)

One thing I don’t like at all, is for someone to tell me what I can’t do and why I can’t do it. I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me (Philippians 4:13, KJV).

Because of Him and who I am to Him and Who He is to me, there are no impossibilities.

With men this is impossible; but with God all things are possible. (Matthew 19:26, KJV)

The LORD hath delivered me out of the paw of the lion, and out of the paw of the bear, he will deliver me out of the hand of this Philistine. And Saul said unto David, Go, and the LORD be with thee. (1 Samuel 17:37; KJV)

…I will not in any way fail you nor give you up nor leave you without support. [I will] not, [I will] not, [I will] not in any degree leave you helpless nor forsake nor let [you] down (relax My hold on you)! [Assuredly not!] (Hebrews 13:5, Amplified)

Who am I in this world? I am His. What shall I fear? What can I not accomplish?

Under His Wings

A friend and I visited a few people in area hospitals today and during our visits she read this verse.

But unto you who revere and worshipfully fear My name shall the Sun of Righteousness arise with healing in His wings and His beams, and you shall go forth and gambol like calves [released] from the stall and leap for joy. (Malachi 4:2; Amplified)

It stirred in me some things I previously taught in my Love and Healing class. I want to share some of the things I found concerning His wings!

He Who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty [Whose power no foe can withstand]. I will say of the Lord, He is my Refuge and my Fortress, my God; on Him I lean and rely and in Him I [confidently] trust! For [then] He will deliver you from the snare of the fowler and from the deadly pestilence. [Then] He will cover you with His pinions, and under His wings shall you trust and find refuge… (Psalm 91:1-4, Amplified)

When He is your God and has your trust, your respect, your obedience you will find a refuge under His wings and He will cover you.

This is what Jesus said to Jerusalem.

…how often I have desired and yearned to gather your children together [around me], as a hen [gathers] her young under her wings… (Luke 13:34, Amplified)

He desired and yearned to cover them and to protect them. But He goes on to say, “…but you would not.” It wasn’t that He didn’t want to gather, cover and protect them. It was that they did not receive Him as from the Father and in turn rejected Him. But there were some in His time that received Him as from the Father and trusted in Him. One of those people was the woman with the issue of blood.

And, behold, a woman, which was diseased with an issue of blood twelve years, came behind him, and touched the hem of his garment: For she said within herself, If I may but touch his garment, I shall be whole. (Matthew 9:20-21, KJV)

And a woman who had suffered from a flow of blood for twelve years and had spent all her living upon physicians, and could not be healed by anyone, Came up behind Him and touched the fringe of His garment, and immediately her flow of blood ceased. (Luke 8:43-44, Amplified)

An interesting note concerning the prayer shawl that Jewish men wore, their prayer closet. The corners of the prayer shawl are often called ‘wings’.

But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings… (Malachi 4:2, KJV)

And when the men of that place recognized Him, they sent around into all the surrounding country and brought to Him all who were sick And besought him that they might only touch the hem of his garment: and as many as touched were made perfectly whole. (Matthew 14:35-36, KJV)

Malachi 4:2 tells us that it was for those who fear His name. In the post from March 5, 2009 I discuss the fear of the Lord. It is really quite beautiful and I recommend you read Malachi 4:2 in light of the insight found in the post from March 5th.

I remember the Lord saying this to me once about a woman that passed away. “I was her Savior but never her Lord.” He said it with what almost sounded like sadness in His voice. Just as Jesus spoke to Jerusalem about wanting to gather, cover and protect her children.

Fear Him (have an awe, respect, reverence for Him). Obey His commands knowing that His commands were inspired by His love and His desire for your well-being. Let Him gather you to Himself and find protection and healing in His wings.

He Who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall remain stable and fixed under the shadow of the Almighty [Whose power no foe can withstand]… He will cover you with His pinions… under His wings shall you trust and find refuge… Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore will I deliver him… with long life will I satisfy him… (Psalm 91:1, 4, 14, 16; Amplified)

Believing the Best

A situation came up with a particular person recently and no matter how hard I tried, it kept creeping into my mind and bothering me. I did all the usual things. I yielded to love. I prayed for that person. I forgave them. I cast the care of the situation over on the LORD because He cares for me and cares for the other person. I prayed God would make me what I ought to be to that person. Yet still troubling thoughts continued to come.

This morning I was reading a book about the love of God and it recounted the story of Stephen found in Acts chapter 7.

And while they were stoning Stephen, he prayed, Lord Jesus, receive and accept and welcome my spirit! And falling on his knees, he cried out loudly, Lord, fix not this sin upon them [lay it not to their charge]! And when he had said this, he fell asleep [in death]. (Acts 7:59-60, Amplified)

The author mentioned that Stephen was loving just like Jesus did as He died on the cross.

And when they were come to the place, which is called Calvary, there they crucified him… Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do… (Luke 23:33-34, KJV)

As I read this I suddenly realized why I was having a problem forgiving and walking in love towards this person. I believed that he knew what he was doing when he did the things that bothered me. That’s not believing the best.

I don’t know that person’s heart. I don’t know what he was thinking when he did what he did. I suddenly believed that if he really knew what he was doing, he wouldn’t have done it.

At that moment I prayed, “Father, forgive him for he knows not what he’s doing. Father, I forgive him. I believe he doesn’t know what he is doing. I believe if he knew he wouldn’t do it.” Instantly all the worrying thoughts and all the heaviness in my heart melted away.

Suddenly there was a flow of the love of God in my heart towards that person. Compassion (God and His love) rose up in my heart for this man and I prayed for him. Not out of frustration. Not out of trying to make the situation better for me. I truly loved this man and prayed for him with no hint of selfishness.

This is the power of the Word of God. This is knowing the Truth and the Truth setting you free. This is being perfected in love and allowing His love to run full course in our lives. This is His way, the high way of love.

Love… takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong]… Love… is ever ready to believe the best of every person… Love never fails… (1 Corinthians 13:5, 7, 8; Amplified)

Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. For if you love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans do so? Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect. (Matthew 5:43-48, KJV)

…perfect [growing into complete maturity of godliness in mind and character, having reached the proper height of virtue and integrity]… (Matthew 5:48, Amplified)

The Teacher

I have better understanding and deeper insight than all my teachers, because Your testimonies are my meditation. (Psalm 119:99, Amplified)

But the Comforter which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, he shall teach you all things, and bring all things to your remembrance, whatsoever I have said unto you. (John 14:26, KJV)

Imagine having the Spirit of the Creator of the Universe as your Teacher. I have been taking lessons from Him for many years now and find I know things that in the natural I really shouldn’t know, but I do. I do because of Him and because of one of my favorite requests, “Teach me.”

After a death in my family I asked the Lord to teach me about healing. A few months later I found myself at a new church participating in Healing School. My ‘partner’ in Healing School (we ministered as teams) was Pastor Larry who was in charge of the Hospital Ministry at our church. As his partner, I said nothing, I just sat and learned at his side. Now I am in charge of the Healing Ministry volunteers and I teach Healing School at my church.

I asked Him to teach me and He did!

I’ve asked Him to teach me about prayer, about spiritual warfare, about prosperity, about love, about marriage, about having children and He continues to pour out His wisdom to me through His word. I ask a question then I see things in His word I’ve never seen before. Or I hear a message that opens up a new truth to me from His word.

The reason I was thinking about this today is because of a precious woman I’m helping who was diagnosed with cancer. She was so anxious, so fearful, so worried in the midst of this battle she finds herself in. I began to share with her about God’s nature, God’s love, God’s healing power. She was grabbing on to everything I shared like a life jacket in the midst of a stormy sea. Yet still, each time I spoke to her again, the anxiety was tremendous. Then I made a simple statement to her and she has had peace in the midst of the storm ever since.

She was worried that she wasn’t praying enough, confessing her healing scriptures enough, reading her Bible enough. Between the teachings on His nature and what He says about healing and then this one simple statement, everything has changed. I simply said to her, “Ask Him to teach you how to receive your healing.”

Today I received a message from her. She just had her first round of tests since the original tests that led to her diagnosis. The original tests showed spots on her liver. The new tests show no spots on her liver.

What wisdom are you needing today? Teach me what to do with my teenagers? Teach me how to train my children? Teach me how to be a good wife/husband? Teach me how to get out of this financial mess I’m in?

Whatever it is, He knows not just an answer, but the answer that will bring you peace and well-being in that area. All you have to do is ask, listen and obey.

If any of you lack wisdom, let him ask of God, that giveth to all men liberally, and upbraideth not; and it shall be given him… let him ask in faith… (James 1:5-6, KJV)

And it came to pass, that after three days they found him in the temple, sitting in the midst of the doctors, both hearing them, and asking them questions. And all that heard him were astonished at his understanding and answers. (Jesus was only twelve years-old at this time; Luke 2:46-47; KJV)

And when he was come into his own country, he taught them in their synagogue, insomuch that they were astonished, and said, Whence hath this man this wisdom, and these mighty works? Is not this the carpenter’s son? (Matthew 13:54-55, KJV)

I tell the things which I have seen and learned at My Father’s side… (John 8:38, Amplified)

The Fear of the LORD

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom: a good understanding have all they that do his commandments: his praise endureth for ever. (Psalm 111:10, KJV)

The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge: but fools despise wisdom and instruction. (Proverbs 1:7, KJV)

The English language often doesn’t even begin to convey the wealth that the scriptures hold. The English word fear holds some very definite connotations in our language and in our culture, but it fails to express the true meaning of the concept of the fear of the LORD. I’d like to share some items I found in my studies this morning that might prove enlightening.

One of the definitions of fear in Vine’s Complete Expository Dictionary of Old and New Testament Words:

Used of a person in an exalted position… connotes ‘standing in awe.’ This is not simple fear, but reverence, whereby an individual recognizes the power and position of the individual revered and renders him proper respect. In this sense, the word may imply submission to a proper ethical relationship to God…

Contrasting definitions for the word fear from the American Dictionary of the English Language (Noah Webster, 1828):

1. A painful emotion or passion excited by an expectation of evil, or the apprehension of impending danger.

6. In scriptures, fear is used to express a filial or a slavish passion. In good men, the fear of God is a holy awe or reverence of God and his laws, which springs from a just view and real love of the divine character, leading the subjects of it to hate and shun every thing that can offend such a holy being, and inclining them to aim at perfect obedience. This is flilial fear.

Now before you run to your dictionary, as I had to, here is the definition of the word filial also from Websters, 1828.

1. Pertaining to a son or daughter; becoming a child in relation to his parents. Filial love is such an affection as a child naturally bears to his parents. Filial duty or obedience is such duty or obedience as the child owes to his parents.

2. Bearing the relation of a son.

Selah… (pause and calmly think of that)

And finally from my studies in the Tehillim (The Psalms with Jewish commentary), Mesorah Publications, ltd:

The masses fear sin only because they dread… the Dispenser of Strict Justice, who punishes for transgressions. They fail to realize that the act of sin in itself is harmful to both body and soul. I will teach you that… Hashem, the Dispenser of Mercy,  is the author of the prohibition against sin because in His boundless Mercy He is concerned for our welfare. You will learn to fear sin because HASHEM has determined it to be harmful, just as a kind father orders his son away from the thorn (Eitz Yoseif ).

The King of the Universe has given us commands in His Word. He is the Creator of all things. He is the Source of the very breath you breathe. He is Alpha and Omega. He more than deserves our respect and our awe. And His commands were inspired by His great love for you and for me.

But as for me, I will enter Your house through the abundance of Your steadfast love and mercy; I will worship toward and at Your holy temple in reverent fear and awe of You. (Psalm 5:7; Amplified)

I stand in awe of You.


I want to share something I read in a partner letter I recently received from Billy Brim Ministries. This passage is in reference to theologian Jonathan Edwards who stirred a revival in Northampton that was followed by the Great Awakening in the 1700’s.

The power that accompanied Edward’s preaching was not the result of his topic alone… Neither was the power the fruit of oratorical skill, for Edwards normally read his sermons. His preaching derived its power from his prayer life. He would spend whole days and weeks in prayer, and it was not unusual for him to spend 18 hours in prayer prior to preaching a single sermon. The result was a revival that not only transformed the moral and spiritual character of his own community, but also that of the entire nation. (Eddie L. Hyatt, 2000 Years of Charismatic Christianity, Strang Publications, Lake Mary, FL, pp. 114-115)

I read this and repented for not spending more time in prayer. I pray a lot already, but not like this. So I endeavored to pray more before my next meeting. What happened? We saw the power of God in our meeting.

When I repented for not spending more time in prayer I heard the Lord say, “I’ve been waiting for you.” He wasn’t mad. He wasn’t put out. He wasn’t frustrated. He was just waiting.

My prayer life to me isn’t about getting things done, or making things happen. It has been about having a relationship with God. So at first it seemed kind of foreign to me to spend more time in prayer for the purpose of receiving more power.

I’m never one to be shy about prayer. I enter boldly, humbly, gratefully every time, but this time my time of prayer seemed hard and I was finding it difficult to enter into His Presence.

Then He said to me, “Just relax.” So I did. I stopped trying to pray a prayer that would produce power and I began loving on God and letting Him love on me.

In my last post I mentioned that the people that I have seen operate most in the power of God were people of great love. And that’s still true. But what I neglected to mention was they are also people who spend much time in prayer. And I saw the connection. People who love much, pray much and people who pray much, love much.

I often tell the healing team that to minister healing you have to yield to His love and let Him love people through you. Remember Jesus was moved with compassion and He healed the sick.

While my prayer life has always been about my relationship with God, I saw it in a most beautiful and powerful way this time. Prayer is about spending much time with God letting Him love on you and you loving on Him, loving others through our prayers and then from that place of love stepping out into the world in the power of His love.

That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height; and to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God. (Ephesians 3:17-19, KJV)