I had an interesting experience this morning. I awoke to a rainy, dreary, cold day outside my home and also inside my heart.
I didn’t wake up to my usual sense of joy. Where was the song in my heart that I hear every morning? It was nowhere to be found. I read my Bible and sensed nothing. I prayed awhile and felt nothing. I then had to leave home and go to a meeting.
The rain poured down as I drove. My heart felt like it was covered by a blanket made of lead. I still couldn’t see any reason why I should feel this way. I put on my worship music and tried to worship, but it was just so dry. I turned it off and decided to just talk to God about it.
I had an hour drive to my meeting. The first half of the drive was not only dreary outside the car but inside my heart as well. But I just kept talking to God.
Then suddenly it felt as though the rain stopped, the clouds parted and rays of sunshine were pouring into the car, straight into my heart. The funny thing was, in the natural there was no change. It was still raining. No sunshine in sight. But something had happened in my heart. I felt His peace, His joy, His love bursting forth in my heart.
I thought about David and his psalms to God. Many times they began with David talking to God about how bad his situation was, how lost he felt in the midst of his enemies, the sorrow he was feeling. But there would come a point when he would burst forth in praise and the sun would shine through the clouds of darkness that surrounded him.
David never stayed in those dark, cold places. He always pressed through until he found his victory in God. Even before his circumstances or situation changed he found his peace and joy in God.
I’m not sure why I felt the way I did this morning, but like David, I am so very glad the Holy Spirit helped me to press through the dreariness by helping me press into God.
A scripture rose in my heart when the Son began to shine in my heart even as it continued to rain outside.
But unto you who revere and worshipfully fear My name shall the Sun of Righteousness arise with healing in His wings and His beams, and you shall go forth and gambol like calves [released] from the stall and leap for joy. (Malachi 4:2, Amplified)
If you have to today, press through the clouds, into the Son and let Him shine on you!