I had an interesting experience this morning with God. As I sat in my favorite prayer chair, I saw some things in my own heart that needed to change. I asked Him to search me, cleanse me and change me. This is nothing new. I spend each day with Him in prayer, in worship, and in His word, being changed from one degree of glory to the next. But today I noticed something. Not something new, but something I just hadn’t really thought much about.
When I first began coming to God to be changed, it was all about me. I was the focus of my prayers. I wanted to change for my own sake. There is nothing wrong with this. My prayers during this time were answered. I was changed. Each day I looked more like Him.
After sometime of praying this way, I began praying more for others, than for myself. I was so moved by their needs I didn’t even think much about my own needs. He answered these prayers too.
Today as I sat with Him, I began to see the faces of the individuals that I am ministering to. People in need of healing of their broken hearts. People in need of healing for their broken bodies. People in need of healing for their broken lives. I found myself slipping from worship over into prayer and I found myself praying that He would search me, cleanse me, change me… for their sake. I was praying about me, but it wasn’t about me. It was about God changing me, so that He could meet their needs through me.
Search me [thoroughly], O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there is any wicked or hurtful way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24, Amplified)
Take for us the foxes, the little foxes that spoil the vineyards [of our love], for our vineyards are in blossom. (Song of Solomon 2:15, Amplified)
Now may the God of peace… strengthen (complete, perfect) and make you what you ought to be and equip you with everything good that you may carry out His will; [while He Himself] works in you and accomplishes that which is pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ (the Messiah); to Whom be the glory forever and ever… Amen… (Hebrews 13:20, 21; Amplified)
Make me what I ought to be… for their sakes.