It’s been about eight months ago that my life took an unexpected turn. After thirteen years of ministering healing to others, I found myself with symptoms in my body that were hindering me in that ministry. I asked the Lord for wisdom so that I could once again sing in the hospitals. His response to me set me on my current course.
“Even if you never sing another song. Even if you never minister to another person. I still want you healed, because I love you.”
He didn’t want me healed for what I could do for Him. He wanted me healed because He loves me. The symptoms were gone within a week.
However, since then I have not sung another song in a hospital and except for one visit for a friend I have not ministered to a person in the hospital either. And after fourteen years at our church, God asked us to move to a new church.
I found myself in the great unknown. Where am I headed now? What do I do now? What is happening to me? And in this place of unknown, things within my own heart, things I had successfully pushed down and ignored for years, things I didn’t have to face in the busyness of life, began to creep up and refused to be ignored any longer. I would have to change now.
So here we are in this concentrated season of allowing God to search my heart and change me. And it’s not always easy. Yet, I keep before me the plans He has ahead for me and all the people that I will once again minister to. For their sake, if for nothing else, I must change. So I press on. But wait, God has something else to say in the midst of this changing.
“I don’t want you to change for what you can do for Me. I want you to change because I love you.”
He loves me. Yes, He loves those that I have ministered to and will minister to again, but while He’s making me and molding me, He is not as much thinking of them as He is thinking of me. He wants me to be happy. He wants me to be successful and He wants all this for me, because He loves me. A simple truth, an obvious truth, but a truth that each day is setting me free.
Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth. (3 John 2, KJV)
For I know the thoughts and plans that I have for you, says the Lord, thoughts and plans for welfare and peace and not for evil… (Jeremiah 29:11, Amplified)
For we are God’s [own] handiwork (His workmanship), recreated in Christ Jesus, [born anew] that we may do those good works which God predestined (planned beforehand) for us [taking paths which He prepared ahead of time], that we should walk in them [living the good life which He prearranged and made ready for us to live]. (Ephesians 2:10, Amplified)
He has prepared a good life for us because He loves us. He’s preparing us for the good life because He loves us. It’s time to change because He loves us. It’s time to be all that Love created us to be.